Today was the big day, the opportunity to hang out with kids in the hospital (which is what I have been wanting to do since I got here). We rode all the way across the city and finally arrived at the hospital. Something was different though, I felt like the baby unit was not where I was being called. A bit nervous, I agreed to go on a tour of the burn unit. Just so you know the people at the hospital warned that this unit took at "strong stomach." As we walked through the door my heart broke instantly. Children were burned...BADLY. In some cases their faces were almost burned off. Their bodies were wrapped in gauze to keep from getting infected. Some were tied to the beds to keep them from touching their skin. I have NEVER in my life seen anything like this. I do not even want to go into some of the details with you.
This is where I belonged, no doubt about it. I prayed that God would help me because I was already feeling a bit overwhelmed. I walked room to room, looking for a child to love on. I didn't have to walk far before I heard one of the most pitiful cries I have ever heard. I walked into a room where I saw a little boy laying with his 2 little legs tied to opposite sides of the bed, rapped in gauze up to his chest. Across the room a small girl laying (tied) on her belly wrapped neck to toe in gauze all that was exposed was her terribly burned hind end. I walked over to the crib where little Edson laid whimpering and crying out for his "mama." I touched his hand and he grabbed on to my finger for dear life, bawling and lifting up his arms for me to hold him. My heart sank when I realized his burns were too severe for me to lift him.
The next 15 minutes were some of the most heart breaking and difficult moments of my entire trip. I tried and tried everything I knew to help my little friend calm down. The nurse came over to try to feed him, he would not take it. I pulled out colored pencils and paper for him to color, he would not take them. So I began to draw and he calmed down for about 20 seconds as he watched me sketch a puppy dog. The calm didn't last long he continued to cry and struggle in his bed. Then I had one of the best ideas I have had in awhile. I reached into my backpack and pulled out a little sheet of balloon stickers that my grandma had secretly packed into my suitcase for the children in the hospital. His eyes widened as I peeled one off the page and handed it to him. The next 30 minutes were filled with smiles, stickers, and coloring. Several doctors and nurses watched smiling through the window as we played together.
When the nurse came and put Edson into a wheelchair to take him out he whimpered because I was leaving. I knew that he needed to spend some time getting his medicine and maybe going to PT, so I decided to hang up our picture at the end of his bed and go find another scared child to play with. Once again it didn't take long to find my next friends. A little baby girl was sitting, bobbing up and down, and giggling in her bed with her little arm tied up to be elevated. I played with her for about 5 minutes and gave her a little bow for her hair. She, however, was not who I went to be with. A child laid across the room in a bed whimpering and crying. Her face disfigured in a terrible way. Her head was shaved and she looked absolutely terrified. This is the type of burn that I cannot handle. The look of it would have usually made me vomit, but I believe that God wanted me there and He did something to make sure that I could handle it.
I walked to her bed and began to talk to her. No words, no nods, nothing. I tried everything I knew even pulling out the small Mickey Mouse I had in my backpack. I laid him beside her in the bed and told her that he was her new friend. I knew she like him but she was still scared.
Once again I pulled out my paper and a sheet of butterfly stickers (from grandma). It was INSTANT joy. Her face lit up and a smile crossed her face. She giggled as we stuck them to the paper. We played for about 10 minutes before it was time to leave. I wrote her a little note on our paper that says "Emili is beautiful, like a butterfly." I hung it on the end of her bed, tucked Mickey in beside her and left.
Today, I learned something that I have known for a long time. When God calls you to something he will fully equip you to handle it. Today not only did I overcome my weakness through Christ, but I also was able to comfort 2 terrified children. I am so thankful for the opportunity to spend my morning with these wonderful children. Please pray for my team members as we continue to work with these kids throughout the week. Pray that we will be able to love them fully and that they will see Christ in us. Thanks so much for reading!
Anna

